As of late i realise something, and it is something i observed from my parents. A person that is truly rich ...... is not someone that has everything ...... but it is is someone that knows how to enjoy and appreciate the simple things in life.
It is just a simple fact. No matter how much one has, if one doesn't treat it as something precious, it is just an OBJECT bought by money. In that aspect, i have much to learn.
HEheh, i think sometimes we just get too caught up with wanting to earn more money so we can buy better stuff. I know i am somewhat sucked into that idea.
Before i began the course, i asked myself and i asked god, what good can i do with it?? After some thought, I decided then in my heart that i want to be able to use my hands to help ppl. To help those that can't even afford basic dental care. To help my friends (yes you who are reading this) as well.
In the beginning, the course was quite alright. Despite warnings from the lecturers that it is going to be tough, i was thinking that it's not at all that bad.... he he. Halfway into the course, when the prac sessions went to the deeper end of the pool, i began to feel the heat. Truth to be said, a dental clinician requires a lot of precision and confidence, which is what i lack. Sometimes i don't understand what i am doing (well, not just me), sometimes my hands don't want to behave (don't worry, i am sure by the time you are my patient, my hands would have been tamed), sometimes the hands feel weak (easily tired). How to be a good clinician huh
On top of that assignments and assessments has rendered my mind numb. That isn't good, coz i start to have the thoughts of "oh dear, what have i gotten myself into".
Two days ago, i forced myself to sit down and rethink what i really want to achieve. Coz it has gotten to the point where i keep whining about work and school. HAhaha, who would want to be talking to someone that is whining all the time?? Sorry ppl, i hope i haven't scared you away
It is not a burden that is so heavy that it is beyond my ability to shoulder it. Coz i haven't come to the end of the road yet. Far from it. It is just that i have tunnel vision. Once i get sucked into something that stresses me out, i get caught in it. All i see is the black clouds looming.
I am hopeful now. I would like life to be a field of sunflowers instead of black clouds hanging over my head. Inheriting some my dad's behaviour and temperament, i must some how have inherited his resilience as well right?? My dad is a real toughie. So is mumsy
Well, i shall say no more. God, You are in this with me. I haven't forgotten what i have promised You. And my dear friends, thanks for your concern. Really appreciate that.
It is time to learn to stop and smell the roses as well as handling the things in life. Are you finding life tough at the moment?? Stop what you are doing for a while, take a walk and get a whiff of fresh air.
Heheheh, my dear camera, since i have recharged your batteries yesterday, it time you work your charm as a record keeper again.
